In my mind, the recuperation for this latest gamma knife would be "easier". This reasoning was based on the fact that the first and second gamma knives were proceeded by a craniotomy and this third gamma knife was not going to occur post-surgically. Unlike when the knowledge gained during the recovery from my first neurosurgery made it difficult to contemplate a second one, the first two gamma knife experiences caused no sense of dread for the third one. However, once again, my surmising turned out to be incorrect.
Several aspects of having the procedure remained the same - which was comforting.
- same location
- same check-in process
- same pre-op nurses (Connie & Marilyn)
- different anesthesiologist
- different 2nd physicist
- different procedure nurse
The biggest change to the modus operandi that did not bode well was when Dr. Mittal (my neurosurgeon) appeared after my stereotactic head frame had been attached and I was in the holding area waiting for the physicists to program the computer for my radiation treatment. My gut reaction was: "This is not good."
Dr. Mittal inquired if I was able to walk with my frame on and I indicated I could. He invited us down the hall to "show us something". It was the MRI from that morning that was done in preparation for my gamma knife. He began by explaining that my smaller tumor (which we were going to leave to qualify me for the drug trial) had increased a few millimeters in the last two weeks and my larger tumor had increased several millimeters. Fortunately, it was still feasible to radiate the exponentially larger tumor.
Hhmm - so what's the bad news I thought. Well, it was that a third tumor (my fifth) had appeared Even more disconcerting was the fact that it was not visible only two weeks previously from my regular monitoring MRI and it was already close to a centimeter in size. Super.
The good news was that it was found quickly and more importantly, before my gamma knife procedure. Therefore, I was going to have both the original large tumor and the new large tumor radiated together - two treated for the price of one. Or at least two handled during the same procedure (as I am pretty certain our insurance will be billed accordingly).
In hindsight, having two pretty good sized tumors treated meant I had a much larger area of my brain radiated than in the past. This explains why the recovery was much more difficult this time - although it wasn't anything I couldn't handle. C.C. Scott said: "The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it." and I agree.
While we were not thrilled by the latest development, it only served to underscore the need for me to begin taking Vemurafinib as quickly as possible. Hopefully, this will happen sometime in the next week and this new "miracle" drug will be effective for me so I can KMA!
Peggy, you are a fighter and an inspiration. Your story is amazing and I appreciate your willingness to share it with all of us. Your openess and determination teaches us about courage and strength and hope and faith. What a blessing that is for us. Thank you for sharing. I'm so happy for you and Keith and Melissa to be speding time in Arizona with the Devlons. I pray it will be a time of enjoyment and refreshment. Keeping you and your family covered in prayer and asking the Lord to clear your body of this cancer and restore you to good health. Enjoy Life ~ God is good and He loves you. Annie G. XO
ReplyDeletePeggy, I agree with your friend Annie's eloquent thoughts and wishes. You are one amazing woman!!!!!
ReplyDeleteKeep up the fight to KMA!!!!!
Love you, Jill Tarp
Peggy - Once again you have found the silver lining in the cloud. I am told this is a 'Tomaszewski trait' and am glad it is so stong in you. Love and blessings, Ruth
ReplyDeletePeggy,
ReplyDeleteThink of you often and know you will beat this! You are a true wonder woman!!
Love, Rosanna
KMA! KMA! Keep on kickin' it, Peg - right in the you-know-where! Love from your cousin, Mary
ReplyDeleteHi Peggy,
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and praying for you! Have all 200+ of our Choir prayer warriors praying for you girl! You will KMA.....you go girl! Have a remarkable great day! In friendship, Karin (from SFB)