Decisions Decisions Decisions

Up until this point, when ever there has been a new development in my war with melanoma, I have not felt any hesitation when I was faced with selecting a treatment option.  When my oncologist and my neurosurgeon laid out the possibilities, I pretty much picked one out - right then and there - immediately after we finished our discussion.

Right now, I am having a hard time making a treatment decision.  This is exactly what Dr. Flaherty forewarned me of at the beginning of this journey: "Going forward, the decisions are going to become more difficult to make."  This is because my situation becomes more complicated with each new tumor.

Previously, I had no trouble reaching a conclusion.  Typically, Keith, Melissa and I would be in complete agreement rather quickly.  I actually even made a joke earlier on about my choice being a 'no-brainer.'

Currently, the answer is not that simple.  This is not to imply on any level, that I am no longer fiercely fighting this with every thing I have available to me.  I am 100% convinced I am going to beat this.  It just used to be distinctly clearer how to best adapt the game plan when the rules changed in the middle of the game.

In the past, one option was overwhelmingly better for me in the long run.  This time, it feels like I am choosing between 'best' and 'best' with equal but different benefits and risks.  From my perspective, there isn't an obvious front runner.  I need more information.  Tomorrow, I am meeting with Dr. Kim (my radiation oncologist) to gather more Intel.  This will help me select which option will ultimately provide the most benefit with the least risk.

One thing is evident - I have been exponentially blessed with much love, significant support and a compelling amount of prayer.

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE - special kudos to crafty Debbie Crawford for the sparkly KMA letters in our latest picture.